Nature

So Mr. Lego and I have been dating for a little over 3 months.....WOW....that seems long, but strangely not long enough at the same time.

Anywho. So Mr. Lego likes a few things.

• technology
• computer games
• comedians
• diet cherry coke
• pizza
• movies
• legos
• G.I. Joes

Yes you might think from the list I'm dating a small child. However I would classify him as more of a BIG child.....GROWN up at least in the sense that he's taller now then when he was a child...oh yeah and he has to shave....other wise I would think the same thing.

You might notice nowhere on the list does it say NATURE, OUTDOORS, SUN LIGHT. These are things I like. But Mr. Lego is a good sport and is slowly coming around. He has noticed that a lot of the things I want to do include all 3 of those things. Fairs, mini golfing, picnics at the lake, cookouts with my parents......etc. So he can stick around a bit longer........I guess :)

Mr. Lego at Lake Williams where we went on a picnic

Day 21 of 30 days of truth

this is never ending. Look.....I know it's not REALLY never ending as I only have 9 posts left........but I'm not able to blog daily.....so it feels never ending.

Day 21- your best friend is in a bad car accident and an hour before you two had a big fight, what do you do?

UHM.......go to the hospital, is this a trick question. What else would you do sit around feeling sorry that you fought with this person.....NO. My bff, Kitty and I would have forgotten about some stupid fight the minute we knew something was wrong with the other person. I can say with COMPLETE certainty that if she woke up in the hospital and I was there her first thought wouldn't be "Why is this bitch here, we just had a fight". Pretty sure that wouldn't matter ANYMORE!

And I also know if she didn't make it, she would know we didn't mean what we said. She would know that while it was being said....but that's what 15 years of friendship does.

Day 20 of 30 days of truth......or 30 posts of truth

Day 20---- Your views on drugs and alcohol.

I love alcohol. LOVE it. I like having a nice refreshing beer with some wings while watching Sunday football...who doesn't. I like having a few rum and cokes with the girls, a nice glass of wine at Christmas dinner with my other family. I LOVE alcohol.....but I don't have a problem with alcohol. I can go weeks....MONTHS without drinking and it doesn't bother me. I know PLENTY of people who can't say the same.

As for drugs.........nothing good comes from it....NOTHING.

Day 19 of 30 days.

Day 19--What do you think of religion

I think religion is great, if that's your thing. It's not so much religion that I have a problem with, it's ORGANIZED religion. I went to church form the time I was itty bitty till I graduated high school. I watched a group of "good Christians" fight tooth and nail to keep a women pastor out of our church, I watched those same "good Christians" choose not to let the younger generations take part in what was considered the traditions of the church, hanging out communion, and doing other usher type jobs. I was while our minster taught us about "the calling" and then left our church for one that would pay him more.

Don't get me wrong my church wasn't all bad, and I'm sure 90% of the churches in America are exactly the same. I could be wrong, but even church gets clicky.

My feelings are If you believe and you have that unyielding trust and blind faith in something....GOOD FOR YOU.....I tend to question things more. I also have a problem with people who think just because I don't think what you think or feel how you feel my beliefs are WRONG... who made them the deciding factor on right and wrong. and let's be real.......killing in the name of God....because that really seems like a good thing. I don't like how people use religion to scare people and make them behave how the masses think they should behave.

Day 18 of 30 days of truth

Day 18--- Your views on Gay marriage

I don't see the big deal. Maybe it's because I'm not a big religious person. But since they only want what every other married person wants.....the rights that come with being married. I don't get what the problem is. It doesn't have anything to do with God and church. They want to be able to marry the person they love, they want to be able to have the same legal rights as married people. that's all that matters. Why can't people see that. No one is trying to disgrace the sanctity of marriage..................but let's be honest, more then enough STRAIGHT married people have done that. How is that hurting your family? How does to men or two women getting married make your marriage and family any less........................of anything.

I guess I just don't understand what everyone is so afraid of. I mean yeah it's an awful scary thought for two people to get married that have absolutely no effect on your life. And when you think about it from a purely legal sense, which i think is how it should be thought of...............then that takes out the whole church view, because here in America we have this crazy "separation of church and state" or at least we fought a war to have that idea, since we don't seem to practice it every often. Or mostly just when it's handy for the christian view. I'm sure a lot of people would disagree with me, and that's fine. I'm fine with that. Because in the long run....gay marriage has absolutely no effect on my life. And regardless........I think they should be able to marry the person they love, just as much as i should be able to. Because gay, straight, bi....whatever, we are still people.

....and it RUNS 10 DAYS!

So today is the LAST day for our fair. The Great York Interstate Fair. This year I made 2 trips to the fair. The first with Preggers and Mr. Lego to see SHIENDOWN, and the second trip with Mr. Lego for our date night.
I don't care what anyone says or thinks I LOVE me a good fair. Come on....what's not to love. Food, animals, rides, games, interesting sights (mostly the people) random side shows.....it's GREAT! I try to go a few times.

so here are a few sights from the FAIR!

yummy fair BBQ!

the pumpkin and gourd decorating contest

the animals!

The concert~ SHINEDOWN!

THE END!

Day 17 of 30

I know the point was to do like 30 days STRAIGHT! in a row. but..........I'm falling behind. Sorry.

Day 17-- A book that changed your views on something.

I'm at a lose. I've read tons of books, but currently i can't think of one that changed my views that drastically................

I will continue to think about this one.

Day 16 of 30 days of Truth

Day 16--Something or someone you could completely live without.

CABLE! I haven't had cable in 3 1/2 years. And I don't miss it one bit.

Some people call me NUTS. LOCO. A FREAK....but only when they can pull themselves away from the TV long enough to have a coherent conversation. Which is usually during a commercial or pee break.

I don't mind not having cable. I'll be honest....i know my weakness. If i had cable I'd be laying on my couch in week old filthy eating Twinkies, picking my nose, and watching Matlock reruns.....because I could. So as to avoid such unappealing habits I opt to not have the demon Cable in my house.

And I'm poor.

Day 15 of 30 days

Day 15--Something or someone you can't live without (slightly modified to my life)

Someone I can't live without......TAYLOR, my bestest friend in the whole wide world! So I'm aware that "the whole wide world" is a very large area....but There's only 1 TAYLOR. thank god for that. Trust me this world couldn't handle 2 of HER! But she lives thousands of miles away right now in smelly old Denver, Co. ....OK OK, it doesn't smell there, well.....it does have an aroma but it's not a bad one as I might have implied. unless the wind blows to the left....then watch the hell out. Since high school (roughly 10 years) she has lived in the Boston area, HAWAII, Hershey, Lancaster, And DENVER! uhmmmmm.........just a thought but maybe she is trying to get away from yours truly??? NAH! So we don't see each other much....maybe once a year. But we talk for an EXTENDED amount of time on the phone. No really, it's rather unhealthy at times. like 3 hours unhealthy. hmmm.....did they ever find any true to that whole "cell phones cause cancer" because if so, we are so fucked.

Last Christmas at her parents house!

Kipona???

So Labor day weekend just ended,,,,which just about means summer has gone bye byes. BOO! But then again fall is my favorite time of year, so i wont complain TOO much!

Labor day weekend means one thing around these parts....KIPONA. Kipona is a food and arts festival in Harrisburg. and i finally got to go this year. One of the perks of having a boyfriend (a super duper boyfriend) is i have some one to go to things like this with, or someone to MAKE go to things like this. We had fun. It was a very Long day and we were beat when we got home, but it was a ton of fun.

I found an awesome little stand where they were selling Clay Monsters which of course I had to bring home. check them out they are so cool.

check out their site. the people are from Baltimore, Md.

Day 14 of 30....sort of!

I know. I know. It's been over a week. I'm just.........blah. Works been really busy, and life has been busy! what a mess. So I'm back. I thought about catching myself up. doing 10 days of truth today. but I've decided to just continue where i left off. which was.....(looking back) day 13. So here goes

Day---a letter to a Hero who let you down.

Dear Magic Bullet,
I'm not sure where to begin. For so long I looked up to you and your blending abilities. I stayed up nights watching and memorizing every aspect of the greatest infomercial in the history of EVER. I mean, really your infomercial was pure genius, the acting-Superb. The lighting -superb. The product-An amazing advance in technology.

I was, in awe of your food making wonder. so easy. Throw the cheese in toss in some peppers, place it on the magic bullet and 1,2........3, cheesy salsa. it seemed so dare i say, Magical. Same easy steps to make fresh homemade PESTO, omelets, frozen drinks....the possibilities were endless.

So imagine the sheer excitement that swept through my body on Christmas morning 2008. The holiday twinkle in my eye shone brighter then the star on my parents tree, because of you dear Magic Bullet.

Fast forward- You suck! And not even in a remotely cool, rebel kind of way. I mean in a completely useless, just taking up space kind of way. The frozen drink function.........SUCKED. don't get me wrong i like when my appliances smell as tho they are on fire...it brings a certain amount of uncertainty to the evening. Cheese chopping.......SUCKED. I'll give you this, you do mix up a wicked omelet....however so does my whisk and it's nearly as much of a hassle.

So to sum things up Magic Bullet........I'm sad. Oh wait.......did you hear that ........(thump).....that was your cheap ass falling off the pedestal i put you on. Try not to get your junky mechanical parts on my floor.

Thanks for NOTHING!
Amy McMean

COMBO DEAL 30 days day 12-13

Day 12--Something you NEVER get compliments on.

My stunning appearance. I tend to be a t-shirt and jeans kind of girl. i don't do make up, I don't do dress up. and I don't spend extended time on my hair. I'm LAID BACK.

P.S. Mr. Lego said i HAVE to mention that HE compliments me on my STUNNING appearance and particular body parts. CLASSY HUN!


Day 13--- A Band that got me through some stuff (write a letter)

Dear Nirvana,
Thanks for making Jr. High not suck. Without your loud angry music I could have very easily gone over to the dark side. Dear god, I could have become a HUGE Backstreet Boy's fan. Oh man. I would have HATED me if that happen. So Thank you. Thank you for your wonderful rendition of The man who sold the world, thank you for Heart Shaped Box, Rape Me, About a Girl, Breed, Come as you are, and everything.
McMean

30 days of truth day 11

Day 11--Something people seem to compliment you a lot on.

"You've got GREAT eyes. "

30 days of truth day 10

Day 10- Someone you wish you could let go, or didn't know at all.

Hmmmm.........I wish I never would have meant Ben and Jerry. Those guys make some sick (as in AWESOME) ice cream. But it goes right to my thighs.

30 days of truth day 9

Day 9- Someone you didn't want to let go over but they just drifted away.

I'm sure we all know a few of those people. I have a few of those people, the ones i figured I would know forever but then after awhile life happen and the next thing i knew I hadn't spoken or heard from them in Months. that turned into years, and here we are.....strangers. I have a person like that. My friend Chef Brownie from high school. I was maid of honor in her wedding. Flew from Pittsburgh to Mississippi to be there for the big day. And now flash forward five years.....we haven't spoken in over a year.

After high school she went to culinary school and then interned in a Casino in Biloxi, Mississippi (yes i just did the little song in my head to make sure I spelled that state correctly). WE emailed, wrote letters, sent gifts via the Postal Service, and finally when she got married I flew down to stand next to her. But then life happen. I graduated, started looking for a job, made a few new friends closer to home, and she went on with her life. Soon we were talking every few months....then every 6-8 months, then on birthdays and holidays only. Until i called to wish her a happy birthday/ anniversary and she informed....she was DIVORCED.

Now we never talk. It's not either of our faults....at the same time it's both our faults. I never call. She never calls. We just drifted apart.

30 days of truth day 8

Day 8- Someone who made your life hell or treated you like shit.

Well definitely Mr. Ship. He was a real D-Bag with a super big extra bold capital D. What a jerk. He toyed with me, drug it all on WAY to LONG. and in the end. Figured he was to good for ME and kicked ME to the curb. And if you knew Mr. Ship you would see he isn't to GOOD for anyone...let alone ME! But I'm not bitter.....not at all. Gee Thanks Mr. Ship! You were a real pal. So imagine how NOT THRILLED I was when I showed up with the New Boyfriend at my cousins cook out to find Mr. Ship there. uhm......could you have stared a bit more creep. Well how do you like those Apples JERK!

I wish that was the only person.....alas it. is. not. The person who goes along with my post about forgiving myself ranks right up there with Mr. Ship. And since I wont even tell you what I need to forgive myself for you know it's bad and HE'S WORSE. :(

30 days of truth day 7

Day 7----Someone who has made your life worth living for.

When i moved home for college 5+ years ago it wasn't how shall we say........a bright point in my life. I pretty much hated my life, myself and most of the people around me. I was moving back to a town I NEVER planned on moving back to. I didn't have a job or ANY prospects. My boyfriend had just dumped me for "ruining his life", and i was moving back in with my parents, who TRIED to be understanding.. Yeah not a high point in my life. The only high point was being back in York made it much easier to be a part of my little cousins, and my nephew's life. I was there when Jessica and Rebbeca got on the bus their first day of kindergarten. I was there when Kanyon learned how to swim and ride a bike. I hosted (and still do) sleepovers for the 3 of them so they will be as close as I am with their parents. Without these 3 I would have been completely lost when i moved back here.I don't have kids. Not yet at least. Hopefully someday I will, but for now I'm content to spend time and spoil the children in my life.

Adventures in Legos

So Mr. Lego and I drove 2 1/2 hours to the King of Prussia mall near Philly yesterday to spend the day.....and go to the LEGO STORE. You see Mr. Lego......well likes Legos (hence the name). sure, he'll say the legos are for his son.......but we know better don't we. i do have to say that the lego store was ......in a word.....COOL. I was pleasantly surprised. they had tons of displays.

Now if you are anything like me you remember when making a lego house with doors and windows was "high tech", not anymore. It's CRAZY the stuff they have. CRAZY!!!! Like the $100 space shuttle. WOW. so while Mr. lego was enthralled with the Lego wall where you could fill a bucket with legos off the whole for $15.

Huge wall of tons of Legos to choose from. all sizes, colors, and wheels to.

Mr. Lego and the BIG LEGO!

30 days of truth day 6

Day 6----Something you hope you never have to do.

I hope I never have to make the choice to keep someone on or take someone off life support. That would be the worst choice to have to make. to decide if it's your feelings you are following the wishes of someone else. i couldn't imagine.

30 Days of truth Day 5

Day 5----Something you want to do in your life.

I would really like to go to visit the Biltmore Estate . I think it's AMAZING!



But right now I'm off to King of Prussia Mall here in good old PA. Yup that's right Living the life!

30 ays of Truth Day- Day 4

Day 4--Something you have to forgive someone for.

hmmm........this one is a bit harder. Fortunately (or unfortunately for this prompt) I'm not currently in conflict with anyone. I guess I could say i need to forgive Mr. Ship for making me feel so bad for SO LONG........but I'm actually pretty over that, now.

Something I need to forgive someone for? I need to forgive myself for eating that delicious piece of cheese cake last night......that sure isn't helping my diet.

30 days of truth Day 3

Day 3----Something you need to forgive yourself for.

WOW. I've got one........and I'm working on forgiving myself for it.

But it's not easy. Not. At. All.

But I'm trying.

30 days of Truth DAY 2

Day 2- Something I love about myself.


Oh this is easy............................(crickets chirping)........Oh I KNOW.............wait no not that................hmmmmm..... No, I love lots of stuff about ME. I mean...HELLO...It's me we are talking about. What's not to love.

But honestly the one thing I love about myself the MOST is that I'm a very creative person. I love to make things and set things up. I'm working on this years Halloween party right now. I know it's more then 2 months away but I've already come up with some super great ideas for the kids. They are going to LOVE it.

Day 1 of 30 days of Truth

I saw this 30-Days of truth post over at A Perfectly Unperfect girl and I thought to myself. That sounds like a very interesting idea. So I'm wagon jumping I guess. But I prefer to say I'm being inspired by another Awesome Blogger! So I'm going to do it. Bare with me as some of my post might not make it everyday, cause......well I'm poor/cheap and don't have Internet at home so I'm forced to use the Internet at work (only when I'm not on the clock...wink....wink) or at my friends houses. Here are the prompts for the next 30 days.

30 Days of Truth:
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself


WOW! This looks intimidating. (Gulp) 30 days of Truth huh.....well here goes

DAY 1 - Something I hate about myself
Oh man do you have all day? Why are we so hard on our selves. I can think of a MILLION things i hate about myself.......well maybe not a million I'm not that self adsorbed. At least i try not to be. If i had to pick just one thing I Hate about myself ABOVE all else........I would have to say I hate how much I'm like my DAD in some ways. Looks it's not all bad. My dad is great....I've picked up some really great stuff from him. My ability to picture things in my head and turn them into something. I visualized our Pacman costumes last year and then constructed them out of cardboard, plastic and paper. And the ROCKED! I have A GREAT sense of direction. But I've got a few bad traits from my Dad. I'm very SHORT tempered. I don't have patients for some people. I understand things quickly so when someone else doesn't seem "to get it" I get very frustrated with them.

I wish I wasn't so short tempered because I feel bad after I fly off the handle about something so stupid.................I usually chalk it up to PMS. :)

And she's off...............

So Big Brother bought my nephew a a motor bike. Sad story actually. No he didn't get hurt, or anything crazy like that. He can't grip the breaks on the handle bars......so he can't ride it. His hands are to small. I feel bad for him. But..........................


At least I can grip the breaks! ZOOM ZOOM!

I've got CRABS!

The one bar near us, Tailgaters, does $1 a hard shell crab days on their deck....Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday.......almost EVERYDAY! And come on! $1 a crab. $1 of hard shell yummy GREATNESS! SIGN ME UP! So preggers, and Julie and i went last week. It was nice, since we haven't logged much girl time" what with preggers going back to school and raising her 15 month old, Julie with her busy life at the family business and her dogs, and then there's me...............ME who is notorious for NOT having ANYTHING to occupied my time.......I've been busy. With my new BOYFRIEND. Yeah he's my boyfriend....it's official. We had the "talk" which I wasn't sure how it was supposed to go since the last time i had the "talk" it involved a note and the words "Do you want to be my boyfriend....circle YES or NO." So i did my best......and by best I mean tried to not act like an idiot. I only cracked one joke about "so now you have to give me your letter man jacket so i can wear it to lunch" oh yeah and this one....so i guess it was 2 jokes..."Does this mean i get to wear your class ring on a chain around my neck". See i didn't do to BAD.Anyways...back to my crab story. So the 3 of us went and had crabs Tuesday night....and they were tasty. BUT, they came with a whole BUNCH of rules. Please refer to the picture for details.

WOW. That's a lot of things to keep straight. But we did ok. No one kicked us out or anything at least.

Things are looking up

Let's see. I've been here and gone for WAY to long. Seems like life just up and got out of hand for awhile. I'm trying to rein it in....but LIFE.....well life is one FEISTY S.O.B.! And a real pain at times.....about 22 hours a day actually. But lately I've been busy.....very busy. Between work (yuck!), my friends, family and well.....my personal life has taken off in the last month or so.........I just can't seem to find time to do anything. Clean, Blog, remember to stay hydrated. It's rough.

Work is just FRUSTRATING! I try and try but I feel like I'm getting no where and I feel like no one at my company cares, they just watch me struggle. So I'm job hunting.....because I'm over this job.

My friends and family seem to be the only people that can keep me sane. And if you knew my friends and family you would understand why that is odd. With all their individual drama and internal conflict between everyone...it's odd that they would actually be voices or reason for me.

And then there's my personal life. Hmmm.... for once it's not bad. For once things are going well. Very well. Almost to well, if you know what I mean. I'm not Miss. Negative. (I swear I'm not, don't pay any attention to what my friends and family tell you). I'm "Miss. I know how my life goes", and usually once things are going well...really well. BAMN! EXPLOSION of horrible measures. So I'm leery. Not of the person I'm seeing (i blogged about him awhile ago), but of the bad things that ALWAYS happen when I'm happy. Because I am happy. Really happy for once. and I'd sure like that to stick for awhile. That would be a nice change of pace.

I've been dating Mr. Lego for a little over a month now I think. One Month and two weeks maybe....but who's keeping track. Mr. Lego is very nice, a bit of a goof at times (hence the Mr. Lego name) but very nice. He's an IT guy for a tire factory, has a 7 year old son, and is divorced. I'm really enjoying spending time with him....he apparently hasn't picked up on my CRAZY GIRL vibe, because he seems to enjoy spending time with me. :) so here you go. blogger friends......meet Mr. Lego.

Ladies Lunch time again!

So the women in my family started these Gorgeous Girls and Grannies lunches every few months. This year we celebrated every one's birthday.......and brought gifts, which in theory is a nice idea. Until you have 11 people at 1 lunch to buy for......then it becomes expensive. So we've covered all the birthday's now, and will just be having lunches from now on. No gifts required. Cool.

So here are a few pictures from the last one we had in Cambridge, Md. Lunch #3


This would be the whole crazy bunch. My Aunt Gloria had the t-shirts and the banner made. Everyone seemed to enjoy them.


Just us nieces. From top to bottom (left to right) Tammy, Kimmie, Missy, ME, and Jen



And Finally me and one of my favorite two little monsters. Rebecca.

Work blues

Every time I say I'm BACK!! something happens and I'm away from blogging FOREVER! So I wont say it.......because I'm sure something will come up and I wont be able to post for a LONG TIME!

I just got back this week from a MUCH need vacation. 10 days off.......10 whole days!......in a row!!

I didn't do much. took a few little mini vacation and spent time with my family, nothing REALLY exciting. But Hey..........at least I wasn't at work. So Now I'm back to the Grind.....and it sucks.

Had a bit of a falling out yesterday with my supervisor. In my defense after a year of hearing "We know you need help, we are getting another person to help you", 6 months of 6 days a week in this place, overtime on my ONE day off, and more and more work........I finally snapped and said "I can't do anymore work, I have a lot of work to do to!" And yet.......I'm the jerk. Wouldn't be so bad but she wouldn't have a rational conversation with me, she just yells, "Never mind", storms off and mutters to herself what a hassle it is to get a little help around here. NO SHIT! I've been saying that for a YEAR! Funny thing....the stuff she wanted me to do.....3 other people know how to do.......why was I ELECTED the person to do it forever NOW!? Oh yeah because up until now I haven't COMPLAINED about or said NO to anything I've had to do.....yeah I am a jerk.

Happy 4th of July

A few weeks ago there was a hot air balloon festival right behind my house. RIGHT BEHIND my house. I was so excited to go over Saturday night and see the GLOW show. when all the hot air balloon pilots light up the balloons.....but it rained. So I had to settle for watching them launch Friday from my porch. This one seemed fitting for today!

HAPPY 4th of JULY!!!

Mess of Information

So I've been seeing someone (?) is that what you call it. I don't know I'm SO out of practice with the whole dating THING. Ugh. But I don't think I'm bad at it....per say. I mean we've been out 3 times with our 4th date taking place tonight. So I must not be to HORRIBLE or AWKWARD to be around. If so.......well I guess he likes it then. It's fun.......I know, I know. McMean a/k/a/ McUnfriendly is having fun making a new friend.................Why yes. Yes i am. See i'm not always a mean person!! Someone please relay this information to my friends, as I'm sure they will laugh hysterically in your face.

So aside from the adventures in dating.......not much is going on with me. Working....A LOT. But I'm looking forward to my 10 days off coming up in 10 days! no big plans.....I would love to hit the beach, but I doubt that will happen. Preggers and I are going to Philly for a few days...just to get away. And I'll end my week off with a trip to the Eastern Shore of Maryland for some McMean Family fun. That might be the closest I get to the beach.....a nice day on the bay. But it's not work....so who cares!

I bought new stuff for my deck and made it look all nice. Check it out!

1 year old

This is a bit late. But preggers little boy turned the BIG 1. on May 31!

Happy Birthday LOGAN!!!

3decades PLUS another 365 days

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MOM AND POP McMean!!!

31 years.............................of nothing but PURE joy and love.........well maybe not NOTHING BUT......

Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad, I hope one day I'm celebrating 30+ years with the love of my life.

SUMMER TIME!!!!

it's summer

Ahh a SUMMER, how I love YOU! I'm not a cold weather person. NOT AT ALL. I hate the cold! I'd love to live someplace warm, surrounded by beaches and water. Ahh that sounds great. Anyone know a good places like that? Oh yeah it needs to be free as.........I'm not very how do you say.......I'm broke as a joke 90% of the time. Anywho. summer time in my family means hanging out at my parents pool.......(when you are to broke to go to a real beach). If you squint your eyes just right and knock yourself over the head you will think those "waves" rolling in across that crystal clear water are big salt water waves (when there really just bumps from Kanyons last cannonball), or that the lava hot deck you just raced across was warm toasty sand. but it wasn't. And then you realize that's not a biplane flying around with one of those 50% off everything at Waves Superstore signs....it's the creepy neighbor mowing his lawn, who apparently only needs to mow the part that gives him a clear view to your pool,.....creepy. So here is how our summer has started

Kanyon spent a ton of time spraying everyone with these stupid water launchers.

Sarah got her first taste of the pool. She looks thrilled, No?

At least Logan LOVED the water!

Sarah and Logan meet for the first time. Logan wasn't sure if she was real, but realized she didn't look like the same baby that follows him EVERYWHERE and looks at him in the mirror.

It happen at work.

A little amount of background on ME! I'm an obit clerk for our local newspaper........(cricks chirping). Yes, i get that a lot, dead silence (pardon the pun) after i mention what i do, most people don't know how to react. The typical "Oh that sounds like a fun job, or, Do you like what you do" doesn't seem the same. Not like i just said I'm a ice cream shop owner or a part time clown. I write OBITS. Not the happiest of times. But OH my........the stories I could tell.

One day while minding my own business at work (google surfing and blogging) my phone rang. Upon answering the phone I was greeted with not your customary "Hello, I'm so and so calling to ask a few questions".....oh no. What follows is one of the oddest conversations to HAPPEN at WORK.

Me~ Obit desk, McMean speaking
Crazy Lady~ Where in the hell do you people get off running stories in your paper about what a great person this guy was.......He was horrible! You ran stories on the front page....... and don't even get me started on his obit! All the lies and half truths you wrote about him make me sick!
Me~ (WTF) hmmm.......Mrs. CL. are you calling to make corrections on an obit or to an editorial story.
CL~ Both aren't you listening..........He was a horrible man who ran around on his wife while she was dieing of cancer......dated my mom and she never knew about this other lady then married my mom and kept her prisoner. I had to kidnap her for her own safety. Doesn't say that in his obit does it?
Me~ Mrs.......it doesn't sound like you were involved in placing the obit with the family and the funeral home, there isn't really anything i can.......
CL~ I'M GLAD HE'S DEAD!!!! YOU HEAR THAT YOU ASSHOLE I'M GLAD YOU'RE DEAD!
Me~ Mrs......
CL~ Where did you get the stuff you put in his obit you named one wife and he was married a few times.....
Me~ All the information comes from the funeral home and is supplied to them by his family.
CL~ Well it's all lies...........You should run a retraction because he was horrible he wasn't this great guy the paper makes him out to be
Me~ We can't just run a retraction because YOU didn't like him..
CL~ Oh you don't know anything your stupid
Me~ Have a nice day (CLICK)

she called back to complain that I hung up on her. I'm pretty sure it was justified.

So what did everyone else write about?? Mama Kat's

Life is all smiles and bunny rabbits!

So I did it. That's right ladies and gentlemen......I. Did. It. IT! and it was .......pretty FUN!

What? You think I'm talking about........Oh come on people get your heads out of the gutters. I didn't do that. I did it.....went on my first date with someone off Match.com. Try to follow along please.

Last night I mean the guy I've been corresponding with (I feel so Anderson Cooper like saying that....corresponding) via email and instant messenger. Seems neither of us had anything much to do last night so he mentioned getting dinner and I figured. Hey. I like Food. Why not. So i did it. I went on a date, for like the first time in........well FOREVER. I mean really..........G.W. Bush was running for re-election the last time i went on a first date.......I know that seems like FOREVER ago....because, it was but....................The last guy i was talking to stood me up three times. 3x's. 3x's. I'm not sure who I'm more mad at him or myself for giving him that many chances to stand me up. It's a slight epidemic in my life.....I've been stood up more times then i can count. So my only expectation last night was that I just really hoped it showed up. and....He did.

We went to Panera Bread (nice and low key casual) at 6 p.m. closed the place down at 9 p.m. (there's something for the fmaily news letter lol ) and then stood at outside loitering for another 30-40 minutes. But it was fun. And looking back there was really no need for me to be so nervous. We decided at like 2:30 we would meet for dinner so I didn't have that few days build up, to figure out what to wear and all that goofy girl junk, which i think might have been better. I had a very nice time. So.....we shall see what happens next. Stay Tuned!

Spent the weekend dodging rain drops and hanging out at the pool (a.k.a my parents house). Have to get some of my photos up from Logan's birthday, memorial day, kim's baby shower, and the hot air balloons. Man. I really need a computer of my own to keep at home with internet. IMAGINE all the things i could get done. I could..............................take over the world!

The hot air balloon festival was this weekend directly across the street from my HOUSE. It was pretty cool to see the hot air balloons that up close and personal. I planned t go into the fairgrounds last night when they did the balloon glow...................HOWEVER it was called of due to ...................RAIN. boo!!!!!

Sending out an S.O.S.!!!!!

So day number (hold on I'm counting on my fingers...one......carry the two) 5. It's day 5 of my online dating adventure. and it's going.................hmmmmm......well it's not going horrible, which is how my last online dating adventure went so I'm happy with this.

I'm still addicted to seeing how many people have viewed my profile and I STILL think it's horrible they give you that information. I'm assuming it's one of those "return on your investment" kind of things. Their way of saying........"See this is why you paid for this so ALL these guys (91 so far) can ogle you". I've received a few more winks and I've exchanged a couple emails with one guy in particular. We are currently doing the getting to know you questions......and this is where I NEED YOUR HELP! I'm not sure what to ask anymore. We've covered the family questions, he has a brother and a 6 year old son, (It's darn near impossible to find a guy who isn't either divorced or a dad, he is both of those things) he lives in the same area as me and he's an IT guy. So I need some question I can ask him.

this getting to know a person thing is ........HARD.

I've asked him his top 5 favorite songs of all time, one place he must see before he dies, and which trilogy is better the new or the old Star wars (he mentioned he liked Star Wars). but now I'm not sure what to ask. I need some go to questions...........Any advice my wonderful friends??? Any advice at all???

Is there a 12 step program for this.......

So I'm addicted! I've got a problem and I'm MORE then willing to admit to it. Since my life has been lacking something for the last 5 years.........that be the company of a nice gentleman.......i decided to try.........match.com

Now I had previously signed up with Plenty of fish, if you aren't familiar with this site, its a FREE dating site. And the guys I've meant on there.............well................let's just say they weren't looking for a nice girl as much as they were looking to find a friend for the night. I only meant one guy from that site in person, he was nice enough. But he wasn't looking for anything serious and i wasn't looking for a booty call. I meant another guy who seemed REALLY nice but he blew me off to many times so I'm done with that site. I'm hoping that since that guys on Match.com actually are willing to shell out some money to be on the site they might take it a little more serious.

Anywho......here's were the addiction part comes into play. I'm addicted to seeing who's viewed my profile and I'm checking every half hour or so to see if anyone knew has viewed me, messaged me, winked at me, and so on. It's horrible. I'd rather not see that 50 guys have looked at my profile but only 3 have winked at me.........not the greatest odds. But since in reality I only need one guy to prove to be a good guy, maybe that's not so bad. I don't know. We shall see how this goes. I've chatted with two different guys. both seem nice enough, although I've learned EVERYONE seems nice on messenger.

I picked "Curvy" to describe myself. Sounded better then "a few extra pounds" or "full figured". I thought curvy sounded SEXY. But i made sure to put photos up that show how freaking AWESOME I really am. and Modest.

I'll keep you updated on my life on the dating site. Wish me luck!

Fun in the sun

SO.........I was off for Memorial Day. FINALLY. some time off...even if it was just for the day. And it felt GREAT. I sat around with the family at my parents house in the sun and enjoyed the day. It was unbelievably HOT out. but the pool helped to fix the heat problem. Preggers, Mr. Preggers, and their little boy Logan, who's 1st birthday was Monday came over for the cookout also.

Big brother and his girlfriend brought my little niece (5 1/2 months) and my nephew (7 years old) over so we had the kid part covered.

It was nice to sit around and relax and chow down on some yummy summer food.

Logan enjoyed the pool, his first experience with such a thing. I think the boat helped.

We've had this baby boat since my nephew was little and Logan loved it right away. Come on....who wouldn't love this thing. I wish I had one for me. lounging in the pool making boat noises and steering my boat around while someone pushes me around. Now that's the LIFE.

I'm NOT DEAD!

WOW.... I haven't blogged in over a month. A MONTH. At one point I thought I might die if i didn't blog EVERYDAY. WHOA! It's nice to know that's not true.

So....where have I been you might be asking yourself.......(wow you aren't? hmmm) well I'll tell you where I've been.

I've been...........................up to my eyes in WORK. WORK. WORK! Yeah I know....I wish it was a better excuse. so let's make one up. ......

I've been busy traveling the world and spending my endless amount of MONEY. My friends and I flew to Bali, where we laid on our OWN private beach soaking up rays and drinking little umbrella drinks all the while flirting with hot guys. It was a rough time. But you can't spend 3 weeks laying on the beach soaking up the sun......(I could) or your end up looking like Ally alligator so we jetted to Europe where we shopped and rubbed elbows with the famous incognito. And finished our trip with a stop in Vegas where......................well you know, what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas.

Ahh that would be SUCH a better story. Sounds better then 21 hours of overtime and pounding my head against the wall. Sounds better then rum drinks in my living room, alone, after a 12 hour day....just so i can calm down. Yeah the other story sounds WAY better. But, it is what it is.

Word of advice~ When and if your company ever says the hated phrase "New computer system" start looking for a new job....STAT!

I did find a few free moments, and I'll be posting pictures from those moments when i get a chance.

Hopefully I'll be back to my.....ahhhhh.......regular life (see the thrilling look on my face) and back to blogging.

Preggers little boy turns 1 on MONDAY! 1 year old. ALREADY. my little buddy! I'm so excited for his party next week. There will be LOTS of pictures of his big 1st Birthday!


So until then.....................................Happy 1st Birthday Logan!!!! Aunt Amy LOVES YOU!

How many can you relate to?

Hello ALL!!! So I received a forward in my email today (insert eye roll) and I NEVER forward those things....well unless it says something in reference to bad luck FOREVER......or true happiness, because let's be honest, If you can't find true happiness via a chain email where can you find it. NO really where ..............anyone.....anyone..... Well thanks a bunch guys. Looks like the quest for true happiness continues. Anyways. instead of forwarding this email to EVERYONE I know, who wants to be that girl, I've decided to post it here. Some of them mad me laugh, mostly because I can completely agree with them.

UNIVERSAL TRUTHS
1. I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.

2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.

3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.

4. There is great need for a sarcasm font.

5 How the heck are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

6. Was learning cursive really necessary?

7. Map Quest really needs to start their directions on #5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.

8. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

9. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

10. Bad decisions make good stories.

11. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren't going to do anything productive for the rest of the day.

12. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after Blue Ray? I don't want to have to restart my collection.. .again.

13. I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten-page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.

14. "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this - ever.

15. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Darn it!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What did you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?

16. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

17. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

18. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

19. I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Bud Lite than Kay.

20. I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.

21. Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the heck was going on when I first saw it.

22. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

23. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I'm trying to finish a text.

24. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

25. How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear or understand a word they said?

26. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars team up to prevent a jerk from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers and sisters!

27. Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.

28. Is it just me or do high school kids get dumber & dumber every year?

29. There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.

30. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.

31. Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

32. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, finding their cell phone, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I'd bet my behind everyone can find and push the snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time, every time!

Too much HOOPLA!

So my 5 day vacation (spent at home doing NOTHING) is now over and I am.......back at work. BOO!

I had taken a few days off for my birthday and to recover from the 10 day stretch I had. My birthday..................in a word.........................disappointing. My family was to BUSY to celebrate my birthday on Wednesday.................so we did it Friday after MUCH fighting and arguing. I actually asked if they needed me there after all. All i wanted was a carrot cake or a German chocolate cake....i don't ask for much. I didn't get either. My mom doesn't like carrot cake, huh I sort of thought it was my birthday i must have been wrong, and they couldn't find a German chocolate cake. WHATEVER. My dinner plans with my friends were canceled but that couldn't be helped. Preggers little boy was sick. Like really sick. Like a 102 degree fever sick. Poor guy. so the dinner was postponed till this week.

I spent my actual birthday at the laundry mat, mowing my parents huge yard (yeah the parents who forgot my birthday...that's them) and sitting at home alone. It was AWESOME.

But i did get a rocking gift from Preggers.

And my parents bought me a new gas bottle for my grill and some BBQ forks and stuff.

My mom said, "don't you think you're a little to old for all this hoopla". The HOOPLA in question was a family dinner at my parents house. Which was my idea. They offered to take me out but I said why don't we just throw some burgers on the grill and eat here Friday that way Big brother, Jan, and baby Sarah could come. all i wanted was burgers and cake at my parents house. What a bunch of HOOPLA. I'm so inconsiderate sometimes. I told my mom they can plan their own Halloween party for the kids next year, and their own children parties and birthday stuff. Since asking for burgers and cake at my parents house is to much HOOPLA for me. I'm out of the hoopla business then.

Her comes Peter......HEY wait a minute

So Sarah went to see the Easter Bunny. Her first encounter with holiday "figures". But I guess Peter was busy....this must be Paulette Rabbit.



Ahh Aunt McMean's happy little bunny friends!

Day 9 of 10

I've been working non stop since Easter Sunday. NON STOP. except for roughly 10 hours between shifts when I'm eating dinner, sleeping, and taking a shower. I'm EXHAUSTED.

The weather has been amazing....at least the glimpses I've seen from the window, since I've been stuck inside the office WORKING. And I'm just really HOPING that it's nice this week when I finally have sometime off. PLEASE!

"Just one more day"...that's what I've been telling myself ALL day TODAY. JUST ONE MORE DAY, after today, and I finally have some time off! Just one more day.

Aside from being screamed out by a VERY ANGRY man.....a funeral director..........another angry guy.........and some lady from a law office, the day hasn't been TO BAD.

Hope everyone else is having a much BETTER day. Just one more day!

5 things Friday

so my bloggy buddy Sam, over here does 5 things Friday. And since she's obvious a smart cookie (she's a Steelers fan also) I figured I'd join her on this nice Friday.

5 things that I REALLY love. NOW......I could say my family..blah...blah...blah...but that's a given, for the most part.

So here we go

1. Flannel sheets. I'm ALWAYS cold, so flannel sheets are the best thing in the world to me! Next to a heated blanket. "You know one of them there blankets with a plug you stick right into the wall, while you watch your shows".
2. SUBWAY. The sandwich place, not the overly crowded, smelly, noisy form of transportation. I love me a good sub.
   
3. Sun, warm temps, and a fishing pole. I love fishing......it's so relaxing. I can't wait to get out and catch some fish this summer.................and work on my tan, after I've applied an appropriate amount of SPF.
4. Grillin. Nothing is better then a yummy hamburger straight off the Bar-B-Q. Unless it's a yummy STEAK!
   
5. Adult activities........................of course I'm talking about Bingo, and sing-songs, and not Sex, and Alcohol. Of course that's what I meant. ;)
   

A room of her own

You might remember I mentioned that Big Brother and his girlfriend moved into a house a few weeks ago. Well, they are still unpacking but Jan set up Sarah Catherine's nursery. So little Sarah has here own room finally.

And finally what's a baby update without.................A BABY!

Sarah in her boppy (or the lobster claw) as i call it.

Busy Beaver

Sunday started my 10 straight work week....and then some. I know. there are only 7 days to a week so tack on the last 3 for good behavior.....or i guess since it's 10 days with no breaks BAD BEHAVIOR. I must have done something HORRIBLE to receive this honor. NOPE. My co-worker is on VACATION. and I'm here working. My. Butt. off......Now that would be a nice side effect if it actually happen. My 10 stretch, 10 day sentence, 10 days of pure hell......whatever you prefer, started Sunday. Yup Easter Sunday. I spent 5 1/2 glorious hours hanging out here at work....waiting for the dead to roll in. Good times.

Wait.....back track. Last week I was sick. SICK. The call in sick, because You can barely speak.....kind of SICK. My throat was killing me all week. By Wednesday even my boss noticed and thought I should go home. When i woke up Thursday morning, i could hardly talk. I laid on the couch, watched movies, took TONS of cold pills, and slept. Same thing Friday. by Saturday my throat no longer hurt but I'm still sick today and it's TUESDAY. So my two days off prior to starting this work sentence....were anything but fun and relaxing.

Fast forward to now! It's day 3 of my 10. 7 more days to go. I don't know if i can make it. Here's the break down.

• Sunday 4/4 worked 5.5 hours
• Monday-Friday 4/5-4/9 10am- 830pm everyday
• Saturday 9am-12 noon (training) 2-7:30 work
• Sunday 4/11 5.5 hours
• Monday 9:30-8:30
• Tuesday 7-3
• OFF WEDNESDAY 4/14 (for my birthday), Thursday, Friday, Saturday AND Sunday.I had to take off these days other wise I would have worked through Friday.

Only 7 more days to go...............................

Know what I know?

So.....................my birthday is coming up. It's right up there----------> around the corner, second Wednesday in April. April 14th to be exact. Yup. Not to far off. I wont be 27 much longer. I'm moving up and on to 28. Might not seem old you. Or maybe it does. But it's by far the OLDEST I've ever been in my life so far. So it feels........not old.....it just feels like I'm not sure where the last 5 or so years have gone. Seems like i just turned 23 a few weeks ago and then suddenly.............28.

Birthday's always make me think about life, go figure right. I think about where I THOUGHT I would be by now, what I THOUGHT I would have, want, need. I think about how I THOUGHT my life was going to play out. So far all I've realized is...................I shouldn't think, I'm not very good at it.

Nothing like a little therapy...retail therapy that is.

After the last couple of weeks I really needed to cut lose and do something for ME. NUMERAL UNO. I tend to not spend much money on myself.
For a few reasons~

1. I NEVER have money to spend.
2. When I do i would rather buy something for Sarah, Kanyon, Logan, Taylor, SOMEBODY.
   
3. I tend to feel guilty when i spend money on myself...and I'm not even a parent. I hear a lot of parents say that, but I'm not a parent, why do i feel guilty???
4. When i do spend money on myself, it's not really ON MYSELF ie. Groceries, electric, car payments, rent. You get the picture

Well this week I have some money. INCOME TAX MONEY. And yes i know i should save it and tuck it away for a rainy day...because in my world it rains...A LOT. But i figured I could spend some on myself for a change. I really needed some new clothes....let's just say someone sneaks into my apartment all the time and shrink a lot of my clothes. Someone name pizza and potato chips. Jerks. So I went out for a little retail therapy. And boy did it feel GREAT. I'm still looking for a spring coat, who would have thought a place called Burlington COAT factory, wouldn't have any coats. Interesting marketing strategy there my friends. But i did get a few new shirts (9 to be exact), a pair of shorts, jeans, work pants, head bands, nail polish, earrings, bracelets, and that purse from the other week. all for around $200. I love retail therapy.

cool clothes. I was TRYING for more color??

and my cool new purse. FYI~ the bed spread the clothes are on is new also. Bought that a few weeks ago on sale at Target for $25

GOOD NEWS

Just a little update on baby Leah (my cousins little girl). They took the breathing tube out and she's breathing on her own. Her heart is beating good and strong and she's hanging in there. They've been trying to fed her breast milk through the umbilical cord, some stays down, some doesn't. Typical baby. I had hoped to see her Friday but they discharged her mother at 11 a.m. Friday and i couldn't get in before that to see her. So now I must have either Niki or David with me to be able to see her. David, his mom, my mom and myself are planning a trip in this week. Niki and David will be going in after school (unbelievable) to see her. So far things seem to be as good as you could hope for. I'll keep you updated.

Had they asked me!

The Prompts: From Mama Kat.

1.) Ask someone who loves you what one of your weaknesses is.

2.) “I need all the help I can get and if repeating something healthy and inspiring to myself several times a day helps, then I’m going to do it!” -What affirmation makes you feel better? WELL THINK OF ONE.

3.) I Wanna Be MADE! You remember the MTV series where nerdy high school kids are made to be popular and what not? If you could be MADE into anything…what you be made into?

4.) I’m reading a book about dogs and kids…it says you may need to compromise some of your dog standards when choosing a dog that will fit every family member’s needs. I think that’s like marriage. What did you compromise when you married?

5.) Why didn’t they ask you? Write a list of 5 or 10 sentences that begin with the words ‘No one ever asked me’; then, write about one of them in detail, or use them all in a poem, or use several in a personal description of yourself.

• No one ever asked me if it was ok to put Fringe on the same time as Gray's Anatomy.
• No one ever asked me if it was ok to close Dairy Queen in the winter.
• No one ever asked me to host an awards show.
• no one ever asked me if it was ok to call in sick.
• No one ever asked me if i wanted more work to do at WORK.

I love Fringe and Gray's Anatomy so when the networks decided to move Fringe to the same time slot as G.A. I was not to thrilled. I hate when they do that. Shake up my life like that. I'm a creature of habit, i don't like change. who likes Change....aside form Obama. Just kidding. But really. I hate when they do that. However, I'm cheap. to cheap to pay for cable so the decision was basically made for me that way. I don't get Gray's Anatomy. I get FOX. So I watch Fringe. I love that show. I never got into X-files when that was on but i think this has a bit of an x-files feel to it.

P.S.
I would be a fun host for the next Grammy or Oscars. Put my name on the list already!

Thinking good thoughts......something new for me

I wont lie. I wasn't thrilled when i found out my 17 year old cousin had....for lack of a better word, knocked up his girlfriend. He's never been.....well grown up, i mean he's 17. Can't get through a day at school without pissing off a teacher, wont get a job, thinks he should be able to do whatever he wants on his parents dime....etc. You know he's kind of a little jerk kid, who acts grown up but is so FAR from being grown up it's laughable. so i was not impressed, excited, thrilled, or any other adjective for happy. I was PISSED. PISSED! He had dropped out of school....because he just didn't like it. He figured in this horrible economy when qualified people can't find jobs his 10th grade education would land him something BIG. I was not IMPRESSED.

But he knocked her up because apparently safe sex is for LOSERS. I know people who have had babies young and who with a little help pull there acts together and do great. I know people whoever had children young (his parents for example) and struggle for the rest of their lives. I didn't want that for him. his brother choose this same path. Knocked up his girlfriend while he was still in high school, she had TWINS, they struggle to make it EVERYDAY and she's pregnant AGAIN. and the twins are only 2. I was also not impressed with that.

These kids have the "Oh babies are fun" mind set. I wish they had the "oh babies are people, small people who depend on me to take care of them and teach them and love them, and I'm incapable of taking care of myself". But they don't. I think the one thing that concerns me the most is the fact that these two boys have twin sisters who are 8. who think this is perfectly normal. And I'm afraid that they will be in the same position in a few years. And i really worry that their parents.....don't so much care. I know they care, but i don't think they'll do much to prevent it.

But babies have a way of warming your heart. So I've come around, they know they have my support and I'm here for them.

sorry that was totally off the path i was heading for. My cousins girlfriend is 16. Her blood pressure went through the roof and they had to take her into the hospital. I commented last week at lunch to his mom that nicki didn't look like she was getting any bigger. at 6.5 months you should be bigger, she thought the same thing. Nicki had to be admitted to the hospital Sunday night because of her blood pressure. Monday they transported her to a larger hospital in the area where she and the baby both went into distress. They took the baby to save them both. Leah Rebecca Barton was born roughly 12 weeks early Monday March 22, 2010 weighting 1 lb. 11 oz. at 9.5 inches long. The doctors said her lungs aren't developed and from her appearance it looks like she hasn't grown in the last 4 weeks and her brain isn't where it should be development wise. Now two kids who don't even have their drivers license are forced to deal with what I can only assume is every parents worst nightmare because they thought they were grown up.

So if you have a minute send some love and happy thoughts this way for little Leah.

I highly dislike Tuesday

I'm exhausted. It's Tuesday. I'm always exhausted on Tuesday. I know....."It's only Tuesday McMean, shape up you still have days ahead of you." I know. But I'm always exhausted on Tuesday.

My schedule is.......dumb. I know i should use my words and express myself and my views better then that, but it's Tuesday. And I'm EXHAUSTED on Tuesday. My schedule is DUMB! I work Sunday 230-830, Monday 930-830, Tuesday-Thursday 7-230. DUMB!

Being here until 830 Monday night and being BACK in here at 7 a.m. Tuesday is..........everyone together now EXHAUSTING! I want to go out and enjoy the day, but I'm already dreaming about the nap I can take after work.

By the end of my day Tuesday, which never comes fast enough for me, I've already logged at least 24 hours of my (what should be) 37 hour work week. And that's on a good week. A week when I'm not staying late Sunday and Monday, a week where I'm not stuck here late Tuesday-Thursday.....those weeks don't happen often. And when I do have OVERTIME on my time card I have to listen to people grumble about how it's not fair I get paid for overtime and everyone else needs to take comp time. My question when should I come in late or leave early, because they decided they didn't need to replace my back-up co-worker. So If i come in late, I'm here late. If i leave early, I'm here late the next day. So honestly.......you can have the overtime pay, I'll gladly give it to you. Just shut up and do the work. And then maybe I wont be so EXHAUSTED on Tuesday.

how i spent my DAY OFF?

I woke up Saturday to my phone ringing, this is what I heard when i picked it up (it was in a sing song voice), "It's moving day, it's moving day, today is the day I move, It's moving day, It's moving day, I'm excited! Are you excited? Because today's what day??? MOVING DAY!" It was my big brother. It was also 7:45 in the AM on my day off. And yes, It was moving day, and Yes I was already aware but thanks for the wonderful wake music BB.

I was tricked/ volunteered to help him and the gf move. See Friday i stopped over to see baby Sarah and Jan told me that they didn't have any help to move the next day. So it was going to be BB and her moving the whole house.................themselves. Oh yeah my 6 year old nephew was going to be there to help.



So i said I'd help.......then BB told me he was picking the truck up at 8a.m. WHAT. So much for sleeping in on my day off. See Friday i was up early and at the laundry mat by 8 so i was looking forward to sleeping in on Saturday no such luck. My dad also said he would help but his back is bad so he pretty much just handled stacking the boxes in the truck. Not much carrying. My nephew pushed the boxes from the back of the 24 foot truck to the front so pappy could stack them. BB, Jan, and I moved the stuff. Lucky for us my brothers only dependable friend did show up at 130 when he got off work and he helped BB move the furniture.

BUT, the friend was unloading everything so fast, and we had just spent 4 hours loading it that we wanted to chill out and slow down before we all passed out, but he was just moving and moving and moving. I contemplated tripping him when he as walking down the ramp. But i didn't. I also forgot to take my camera so the only pictures i have are the few i took with my phone.

We finally finished unloading everything around 630. and then promptly stuffed our faces with pizza and passed out.

Welcome home BB, Jan, Kanyon and baby Sarah

FYI~ my body is VERY upset with me. It hurts ALL over