My fall bucket list

I LOVE fall.  Every year there are things I want to do that I never get around to. Man it pretty much happens through our lives everyday. 

Well I might not ever get to Paris or swim in the he ocean off Bora Bora but I'm hoping I can accomplish a few of these things this fall. 

1. Attend at least one fall fest,  which has become a bit or a tradition for our family.

2. Carve a pumpkin. I usually never get around to carving them.

3. Have a campfire with friends.

4. Learn how to make apple dumplings.

5. Jump in a pile of leaves.

6. Head to a winery with some friends or a local brewery and try something seasonal.

7. Handout candy on trick or treat night. I'm always stuck at work and always miss doing it. Last year I raced home with a half hour left of trick or treating and it started pouring when I got out of the car. 

8. Makes some pumpkin cookies.

9. Snuggle up with a good book.

Some f those things I know I'll get done but I'm hoping i get a few more. 

Oh to be an only child

Oh to be an only child. I can't even imagine what that would be like. It must be magical. You never have to share your toys. No one elses stinky feet will ever creepy over onto YOUR SIDE of the back seat on those long cars rides. You won't silently be wonderiing if mom likes them better. It must be great. 

I wouldn't know. I have a brother. A brother who is 18 months older then me. A super duper brother...and by super duper I mean a brother who has teased me and made my life hell on more then one occasion. My mom and grandmother like to say 'whenever you got in trouble your brother would sit in the corner with you and tell you everything is ok' I don't remember that, what with it happening when I couldn't even count past 5. You know what I remember. Him tormenting me. TORMENTING ME.  Even to this day, I'm 32 and he's a few days shy of 34, he teases me every time he sees me. His favorite thing to do is pinch the under side of my arm. He's such an ass. He also enjoys making fun or just about everything and anything that has to do with me. 

He's fun. 

It's a 2 for 1 kinda day

#4 a text conversation that makes you L.O.L.

this conversation took place between my bestest best friend and me. We never skip a beat even with her living in Denver, CO And me living in York, PA

BFF- last night I went to Wendy's and they gave me a regular coke instead of a DIET COKE.

ME- those jerks!

BBF- yeah, I had to calm myself down in the car. I said to myself, 'Get over it You're about to eat a baconator the calories in the regular coke REALLY don't matter at this point'

ME- LOL. 'I asked for a baconator and a DIET coke...this is regular coke are you tying to kill me!' 

While I would much rather be able to have real life face to face conversations with her. Our text conversations prove to be very comical. 

Post #5 Write a post about the color orange. 

Orange, orange, orange is a color I'll always associate with fall. Pumpkins. Leaves. Thick warm fall sweaters. I once had a warm ribbed sweater with a turtle neck that I LOVED. LOVED. LOVED. I wore it all the time. With boot cut jeans and black boots. Pretty cool. At least I thought I was. The minute it starts to cool down outside I want pumpkins and colorful orange leaves and thick warm orange sweaters. 

3rd of 31

#3 best book I read this year. 

Hmmm. I haven't read as much as I would like lately. 

But I did read Gone Girl. 

Normally I try not to read books that are surrounded by hype and that everyone seems to LOVE, because I always hate them. They are built up to be THE BEST BOOK EVER but after I read them I'm left thinking......did I miss something, why does everyone love this book or that book. Well, gone girl was shaping up to be another dud book to me. I just couldn't get into it. 30 pages in boring, 50 pages in boring, 70 pages in is it over yet, 100 pages in....wait a second what's going on here this isn't so bad after all. 

It might be the best book I ever read but once I hit the 100 page mark it started to get interesting. Finally a hyped up book that wasn't a complete dud. 

2nd of 31 posts

Today has been a cluster Fuck of Epic portions. BUT I'm still posting tonight, so GO ME! 

#2 on the monthly writing prompt. A FALL FASHION YOU CAN'T STAND.

I'm not sure if there is a certain look that I just can't stand. Maybe shorts with tights. It's fall people, pack up the daisy dukes and pull out the pants. Summer is gone. It's not cute. It's not hip. It's wired. And you look weird and nobody wants that. I personal would rather chew off my arm then wear tights to begin with.but that's just me. And I'm sure it's due to me strong dislike for dresses. I really wish I was a dress up kind of girl because there are a ton of cute dresses and sweater dresses that I would love to rock. But that's not me. 

You what I don't want to rock....SHORTS WITH TIGHTS UNDER THEM. WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING.  Did you get dressed in the dark? Oh I know you are covering your bases incase it's cold OR we get a freak 90 degree fall day. 

KNOCK IT OFF. 

October 1st post

I'm going to TRY and post each day this month. (I wouldn't hold my breath if I was you).

1. What was I blogging about last year.

Last year at this time we had just started the living remodel, and boy was that a fun 6 months. Ohh it must have been a big remodel. NO. NO IT WASN'T. We are just very slow and my husband isn't highly experienced in the DIY home remodeling categories. But we did it. With some help from some friends.  So I'm glad that's done. Now we can move on to MORE DIY STUFF! super excited. 

This time last year we were also gearing up for another exciting fall. I love fall and I tend to organize outings.....which I think everyone else enjoys, but who really cares. I have fun.  Some favorite pics from last years. 

I love everything about fall. The colors. The cooler weather. Pumpkins. Hayrides. Love it. 

Moving forward

It's been a while since I've posted anything.........we have shifted our focus, much to my husbands dismay at times, to working on our house. I posted the half removed wall awhile ago and it's safe to say that's finished. 

Before

After

We added an island in our kitchen 

Hung up our MILLER WALL

Painted the living room and kitchen and hung up a wedding canvas.....finally  and some other decor

Hubby decorated his room some as well 

So We've been busy doing little things around the house and yesterday we finished the sign and photos for over our bed . 

Pretty happy with how it turned out. Just two boards we nailed painted wood letters to the top one and I found some cool old rusty drawer pulls at the habitat store which I used to hang the pictures from. The pictures are from our honeymoon. And the saying while odd is something we say to each other all the time. 

And an update of my craft room 

And a mirror I re-did with spray paint and fake flowers.

So that's what I.ve been up too. 

How long does time take

3 years.

3 years to almost the hour.

I think it was around 11pm when we got the call.

'You'll want to get to the hospital right away.'

My heart stopped. I don't remember driving to my moms house. I don't remember driving to the hospital or The elevator ride up to the ICU.

I remember the nurses ushering us into a holding room. I remember the doctor telling us nonchalantly that they couldn't keep him breathing. That they brought him back and lost him again. REPEATEDLY. And they needed to know ' Do you want us to stop'.

We told them to stop. That his poor body had had enough. Then we waited for my brother and his wife to get there. Waited knowing that we would have to tell him dad was gone.

I remember the sobbing when we told him.  They let us see him one more time. There had been blood in his beard from removing the feeding tube.....and they shaved his beard.

He didn't look like my Dad.  I remember telling my nephew that 'Pappy would look different at the funeral.

My dad was one of 8 kids, after he passed we were bombarded by his sisters....trying to surround us with love but at the time it felt smothering.

Today was a hard day for me. Everyday is hard. So much has happen in 3 years. He missed so much. We've missed so much. Some day's I still think that he'll show up. That he's just been traveling and now he's back. I know that wont happen. But it sure would be nice.

Things get easier with time, that's what everyone says.  How long does time take. Because 3 years hasn't put a dent in my pain. 5 years? 10, 15, 20 years? I'm not sure I buy into that theory. At. All.

A little less me, please.

I'm not usually big on RESOLUTIONS made for the new year. BUT.....this year I've made a resolution. To ..........drum roll please............LOSE WEIGHT. 

My clothes are to tight and I'm not happy. The clothing I received for Christmas was my size..but that didn't fit either. 

I noticed my body has been sore. I feel old. Real old. And I don't like it.

But most importantly I need to lose weight because the hubby and I have been trying for a year now to have a baby and  it's no going so great. I have done everything else they recommend. Charting ovulation, vitamins and lots of practice..wink wink.., But no luck. So the next step is to lose some weight. Truth is, I need to lose weight for a ton of reasons. So I'm going to work at it. And the hubby is going to work at it with me. 

We use an app on our phones MyfitnessPal. Put in your current weight and it tells you how many calories you need to eat each day. The app makes it easy to track what you eat and any excerise you do. It's pretty great...it makes it idiot proof. You can use the camera on ur phone to scan the bar code of packages to automatically enter the calories. You can also search for food in their catalogue. It's pretty great. 

So we have no reason to not "be able to stick to it'. I'm hopeful. Usually we last a month or so and then it's back to ice cream and pizza stat, but this time I want to stick with it. 

So here's to seeing less of myself in the months to come.