I think today could possible be the worst day of my life. Here i sit at work while my mom and dad are at the neurologist finding out about my mom's MRI results. Her doctor sent her in for an MRI on her brain two weeks ago. They called last week to say things "didn't look good" and that she would need to see a brain doctor ASAP. According to the report she has lesions, white matter disease and cysts on her brain. But i don't know what any of that means. and GOOGLE isn't helping. I swear medical information online is the worst thing a person can find. So here i sit waiting for her to call, even though I know she will not call while I'm at work.

When i came home from college (5 years ago) my mom suffered a few minor strokes. However she had surgery to unblock the two main veins in her neck and almost died. Like light at the end of the tunnel saw herself outside of her body DEAD. But she pulled through and I held my dad and my brother together until they told us she would be fine.

I can't do that again. I've never been so scared in my life. What if it's not ok? My dad lost a child I don't know what he would do if he lost my mom. She's only 51. She has a granddaughter on the way.

So here i sit at work, the last place I want to be, waiting for someone to tell me what happens next.